THE TURNING POINT!!

My life got changed just within a month. When I look back at myself a month ago I realise how my life was so peaceful and finest. I realised I didn’t have to struggle for little things. From newspapers and polyethene to food and stay. I just got everything in my bed. I don’t know how to cook except for tea and Maggi. I don’t know anything. I found out after leaving my home I realized I m such a homesick person. I was going out of my house, leaving my parents was for the first time. I had never done this before. This was THE NEW EXPERIENCE  !!!!!!!

On 1st December I shifted from VIDISHA (my hometown) to PUNE for my further studies. At first, I was super excited and thrilled that finally, I get to leave my home. I don’t have to ask my parents for little things. I was like I want this. After shifting my all dreams were shattered. It was all different from what I thought.

When I reached PUNE I directly went to PG which I booked through my friend. when I saw it I found out 11 people living in the house. The mattress was so bad uff. We were living in a hall. Geyser was not working in one of the bathrooms. My mother started crying when she saw all this. My heart broke because I saw her crying like that. All I could do is hug her. After that my family bought some stuff for me and dropped me off at my PG. I only know how did I spend my first day in  PUNE. After some time I got to know that’s how the PGs are. The second day I went to college. I liked the college on my first day. I made some friends. We bonded over Korean dramas. The first day went well. My family was leaving home. They both came to say the last goodbye. My both parents cried. HURTFUL! I wasn’t able to sleep that day seeing their crying faces.

The same story repeats. I became friends with my roommates. The best part till date was when me and my roommates went for grabbing some coffee I saw a cute cat at a café. I love cats so much already and when I saw her it made my day.

After all this, I still tried hard to settle here. I like PUNE. The main problem is the mother tongue. I can speak Hindi cant speak Marathi. Most people speak Marathi. So language is the problem. That’s why maybe I couldn’t get along with the people in college. Sometimes I think I m a boring person or the person Infront of me is boring. IDK .

A lot of things I experienced in this phase i.e my extreme stress. Stress which is I never experienced before.  I’ve been into stressful situations before too but this time it’s different. This time when I was under stress I feel a lot of load in my body. I feel so tired. I can’t even think of anything else. I just wanted to get laid on my bed. It happened a few days ago but right now I m fine.

I also want to be thankful for the situation. I got to understand the value of my lovable parents. They are the only one who knows what is going on with me. I appreciated my mom’s cooking. I miss her food so much. I regret that I can’t learn her cooking. I MISS MY GHAR KA KHANA.

This is not it. I m still struggling. I m missing my home, parents, my past life!!!