Vishakha :)

ROMCOMS RUINED ME!!!

I know the title is a little weird but rom-coms had wrecked my life. ROMCOMS are not real though. But I wish it were real. I cannot resist watching it. Oh god have you ever felt butterflies🦋 in your stomach while watching some romantic movie. I don’t want that damn butterflies. It’s not like I want a similar story in my life. Ok, lemme be a little candid! YES I do want the same story in my life. I know it’s not happening. Not in this life. CAN’T HAPPEN!!

But whenever I see a movie I start visualizing things. It happens to me every time. I m an overthinker, not a normal overthinker a superlative overthinker. I put myself in that scenario. The whole night I end up imagining things and wake up with a blushing smile. Though I’m not gonna lie I enjoy imagining things. Being a hopeless romantic, this only gets my hopes up for a man with gorgeous blue eyes, a chiseled body, and a personality that isn’t superficial and so self-absorbed. That’s not even possible.

Nobody is that perfect. I’ll leave those kinds of relationships to the movies. It’s pretty easy to recognize that the behavior we often see from men in the movies is so not the behavior we see from them in real life. Where are these men? These stories are so fictitious.

My expectations are not obviously about men. But also about the lifestyle, friends, family, clothes, food, travel…umm everything. The movies have even prom night for teenagers. I’ve never been into nightclubs. I’ve never been into theme parties too and also Halloween parties. Seriously Don’t be shocked. I want to feel it all. Not gonna die without experiencing it!

What happens exactly in a typical movie. There is an unpopular/shy girl and a handsome popular guy. They don’t like each other at first. But become friends, started liking each other. What happens at the Climax, due to untoward incidence let’s say a girl regrets liking that man. But the man somehow manages to convince the girl that they love each other. In the end, there is a happy ending. BLAH!! The most typical storyline of every damn movie. Is this even real Or I m the supporting character of someone’s life. I hate being a supporting character. I want to write my own story.

Yes, here I m being hypocritical. On one side I m saying that I hate rom coms one side I m saying that I also love watching it. That’s what the problem is. I also want to watch all romcoms. I want to watch it without intensifying my expectations. While watching any series/movie My friends often said to me they relate to the story. But it never happened to me. I can’t relate to anything. I accepted that every story is a fairy tale to me.

WANT TO WATCH WITHOUT HAVING OR INCREASING ANY EXPECTATIONS.

Ps: leaving the blog here I’ve to watch She’s all that( Rom-com )🙈

My self-management skills!! 👀🥲

Recently my college asked me to submit my resume for the internship. So I mentioned my self-management skills in the resume. Actually, I don’t know I have management skills or not. So, In this blog, you get to know how my self-management skills work.

My close ones know how clumsy I m. A few days ago I came back home, I was traveling by bus alone and when I dropped off from the bus I forgot to take my suitcase back!…… Yaa I know that is so stupid of me. So what happened was when I got off the bus, some auto drivers asked me Do you want to go somewhere? I said no.. because my cousin was supposed to come to pick me up. Then I called my cousin and yelled at her because she just woke up and I told her that I reached so come pick me up. Till here I forgot that I had to take my suitcase also. My father called me and asked did you take your bag with you and I was like where is my bag. When my cousin arrived she started laughing at me constantly. THAT’S BAD. I waited for about 1 hour for the bus to come back and to get the bag back.

Till now I realised when I traveled without my parents I lost or forgot something. This was the second time I traveled alone. When the 1st time I traveled to Jaipur, I lost my locks and also left one pair of my slippers at the station. Actually what happened was it was a school tour, so we were going on the train and accidentally I left my one pair of slippers at the station. The fun fact is I forgot to leave another pair there. I brought another pair with me to home. FUNNY RIGHT!!!!! Yeah u can laugh too! XD

First I lost the lock then I lost the suitcase and next time I m gonna lose myself. Hence proved I was born upside down. And I m not proud at all.

So In all, I have flaws. I don’t appreciate it and still, try to get over it. But most important is I love every bit of myself. No matter how clumsy & stupid I am, in the end, I know that’s how I am. At least all I can do is I can improve.

NOT PERFECT BUT STILL PERFECT!!!!!!

THE TURNING POINT!!

My life got changed just within a month. When I look back at myself a month ago I realise how my life was so peaceful and finest. I realised I didn’t have to struggle for little things. From newspapers and polyethene to food and stay. I just got everything in my bed. I don’t know how to cook except for tea and Maggi. I don’t know anything. I found out after leaving my home I realized I m such a homesick person. I was going out of my house, leaving my parents was for the first time. I had never done this before. This was THE NEW EXPERIENCE !!!!!!!

On 1st December I shifted from VIDISHA (my hometown) to PUNE for my further studies. At first, I was super excited and thrilled that finally, I get to leave my home. I don’t have to ask my parents for little things. I was like I want this. After shifting my all dreams were shattered. It was all different from what I thought.

When I reached PUNE I directly went to PG which I booked through my friend. when I saw it I found out 11 people living in the house. The mattress was so bad uff. We were living in a hall. Geyser was not working in one of the bathrooms. My mother started crying when she saw all this. My heart broke because I saw her crying like that. All I could do is hug her. After that my family bought some stuff for me and dropped me off at my PG. I only know how did I spend my first day in PUNE. After some time I got to know that’s how the PGs are. The second day I went to college. I liked the college on my first day. I made some friends. We bonded over Korean dramas. The first day went well. My family was leaving home. They both came to say the last goodbye. My both parents cried. HURTFUL! I wasn’t able to sleep that day seeing their crying faces.

The same story repeats. I became friends with my roommates. The best part till date was when me and my roommates went for grabbing some coffee I saw a cute cat at a café. I love cats so much already and when I saw her it made my day.

After all this, I still tried hard to settle here. I like PUNE. The main problem is the mother tongue. I can speak Hindi cant speak Marathi. Most people speak Marathi. So language is the problem. That’s why maybe I couldn’t get along with the people in college. Sometimes I think I m a boring person or the person Infront of me is boring. IDK .

A lot of things I experienced in this phase i.e my extreme stress. Stress which is I never experienced before. I’ve been into stressful situations before too but this time it’s different. This time when I was under stress I feel a lot of load in my body. I feel so tired. I can’t even think of anything else. I just wanted to get laid on my bed. It happened a few days ago but right now I m fine.

I also want to be thankful for the situation. I got to understand the value of my lovable parents. They are the only one who knows what is going on with me. I appreciated my mom’s cooking. I miss her food so much. I regret that I can’t learn her cooking. I MISS MY GHAR KA KHANA.

This is not it. I m still struggling. I m missing my home, parents, my past life!!!